Hidden Struggles, Holy Victories

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I’ve learned over the years that the fiercest battles are often the ones no one else can see. They don’t come with a roar; they slip in quietly—like a whisper in the dark, a heaviness you can’t name, or a memory that appears without warning. Yet when the Holy Spirit is welcomed into those hidden places, He doesn’t just point out the pain—He gently walks us into a freedom we didn’t know was possible. “The purposes of a person’s heart are deep waters, but one who has insight draws them out.” — Proverbs 20:5

            I remember praying for a long line of people a few years ago when a middle-aged woman stepped forward. Her voice was soft as she explained that she had always struggled to receive from the Holy Spirit. I laid my hand gently on her shoulder and invited the Holy Spirit to come. As I prayed, my eyes were drawn to her left hand, and I felt the Holy Spirit was highlighting the fact that there was no wedding ring there. Another nudge in my Spirit came, as I sensed the Holy Spirit was wanting me to, “Ask her about her marriage”. She told me her husband had been unfaithful, and the marriage ended years earlier. She had gone through counseling and believed it was behind her.

            Then came another prompting—clearer this time: Ask her to bless her ex-husband. She agreed and began to pray a very nice prayer. About a minute into the prayer, which was a heartfelt prayer full of grace for her former husband, her face twisted into obvious distress, and her voice suddenly broke, and she began to almost shout, saying: “I can’t! I can’t! I hate him for what he did. I hate him.” As shocked as I was to hear her response, it was even more of a shock to see her response. It was as if she were hearing her own heart for the first time. That’s when I realized—this wasn’t about her ability to “receive” from God. This was a battle buried deep, a wound that had never been healed.

            When bitterness is present, there is almost always a lie the enemy has planted—often about God’s love. Something like: “If God really loved me, He wouldn’t have let this happen.” Lies like that don’t just wound us—they become a prison. “See to it… that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.” — Hebrews 12:15

            I asked the Holy Spirit to shine His light into the earliest moment that pain had entered her life. I led her to renounce the lie, forgive, and bless her ex-husband, and declare the truth of God’s unfailing love. About 45 minutes later, she returned—eyes softer, shoulders lighter. She asked for prayer again, and this time, before my hand could reach her shoulder, God’s presence poured over her like warm oil. The gift she had longed for earlier now flowed without resistance.

            The last I saw of her, she was lying on the floor, tears streaming down her face, smiling as she rested in the presence of the One who had untangled her heart. “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3

The Unseen Battlefield

This reminded me of a story that happened years earlier in California, though the lesson came differently; I believe there are points we can draw from it. It was my last night after five full days of ministering. Around one in the morning, just hours before my flight was to leave. I had finished praying for the last person in line when a woman approached me. “When you prayed for me,” she said, “I felt the Holy Spirit… but then I felt something crawling on the side of my face. Do you think that was the Holy Spirit?” I smiled and replied, “I’ve heard many descriptive phrases used to describe the presence of the Holy Spirit, but never one that was described in such a manner.” I prayed once more, and she seemed fine; however, she returned a few minutes later with the same concern. Because it was late and I was exhausted, I suggested she speak with her Pastor the next day. But as I turned to walk away, the Holy Spirit rose up in me, and I turned back abruptly and forcefully, looking her in the eyes. I said, “Who struck you violently across the face?”

            Immediately, she went into a full-blown demonic manifestation. I commanded the Spirit to submit in Jesus’ name. It resisted, but after being firmly rebuked a few times, it left. When she came back to herself, she was obviously still shaken—but more than willing to meet with the Pastor and his wife ASAP. Later, as I was leaving, she came up and told me she had been in a deeply abusive marriage where her husband had often struck her violently across the face. Once again, the Lord reminded me: so many battles are beneath the surface and rooted in wounds the world cannot see—pain, shame, and lies that give the enemy ground. These wounds don’t heal with time alone. They must be brought into the light, confronted with truth, and surrendered to the Healer. “You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” — John 8:32

            Both women walked carrying invisible chains, but the Holy Spirit saw every link. And He didn’t just point them out—He offered freedom. That’s His way. He reveals so that He can restore. The battles beneath the surface may be quiet, but when the Spirit steps into them, they end in victory—often with tears of joy in the presence of the One who makes all things new. “The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me… to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.” — Isaiah 61:1

            We rarely see the true battlefield with our eyes, but the effects are everywhere—strained relationships, sudden outbursts, lingering sadness, or the inability to believe God’s goodness. The enemy works hard to keep those battles buried because once they are exposed to the light, his grip is broken. I’ve learned that spiritual freedom almost always begins in the same place: honesty before God. Not the polished prayers we think He wants to hear, but the raw truth of our hearts—anger, fear, confusion, and all. David prayed this way in the Psalms, pouring out his pain while still choosing to trust God’s faithfulness. “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts” (Psalm 139:23).

            When we dare to let Him search us, He doesn’t shame us—He shepherds us. He walks into the locked rooms of our soul, not to condemn, but to heal. Sometimes the breakthrough is instant; sometimes it comes layer by layer. But in every case, His goal is the same: that we would walk unchained, able to love without fear and worship without restraint.

            If you find yourself in such a battle today, don’t mistake the silence for God’s absence. The same Spirit who saw those two women in their hidden pain sees you now. And just as He did for them, He stands ready to bring truth where there have been lies, peace where there has been torment, and wholeness where there has been brokenness. The battle beneath the surface may be fierce, but the One who fights for you has never lost.

            Even now, in a world where headlines scream of conflict, division, and fear,, unseen battles are raging in hearts all around us—sometimes in the person sitting right next to us. Let’s be people who notice, who listen, and who pray with the same compassion Jesus has shown us. May we carry His presence into the hidden places, confident that no wound is too deep, no chain too strong, and no heart too far gone for His healing touch.

In Him!

One response to “Hidden Struggles, Holy Victories”

  1. Jon Peterson Avatar

    So beautifully expressed, and illustrated by the testimonies. Thank you.

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